self·ish
[sel-fish] –adjective

devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one’s own interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others.
characterized by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives.

bro·ken
[broh-kuh n] –adjective

ruptured; torn; fractured.
changing direction abruptly.
infringed or violated.
interrupted, disrupted, or disconnected.
weakened in strength, spirit, etc.
disunited or divided.

I’m in a process of redesigning my life at the moment. One point at the time until it becomes a better vector. Get out from the shadow, no filter, no mask, just bring it forward.
I’ve always known as someone who hold on to his past. I can’t let go any of them. For me, the past has always been part of my life that I can not let go. The past made me who I am today. But who I am today is not someone that I recognise. When I …

I know that i’ve been away lately.. well.. almost a year to be exact since the last time I updated the ‘Diary’ section. Today, I have a little bit of spare time to write. Normally i would just spend my time watching the series or doing something stupid on the X-Box or even just starring blank at my bedroom wall. But I’m tired of them, I miss this space.. I miss talking to the white page that constantly listen to me through the letters that I type.
As I am writing …

You know at some point in life, you just feel angry at the world, you feel betrayed, you feel like you are living your life safely then BAM! One shit after another start to rain in your parade..
Life is not fair, we know that, but why life has to be so hard? that’s a question where people would just answer simply ‘just because…’ seriously.. what’s the point of it? I feel like we are living this life so careful just because we believe at the end there would be a …

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(This… Fire… Grows… High…)
When there’s a burning in your heart
An endless fury in your heart
Build it bigger than the Sun
Let it grow
Let it grow
And there’s a burning in your heart
Don’t be alarmed

“Forever.. Whenever.. I’m on my knees. Never wanna die, dancing on my grave. Running through the fight. Never wanna die, never wanna leave. Never say goodbye.” + Foo Fighters – Walk

Sorry I haven’t been able to update this blog (AGAIN) for the past few months.. life has been very busy lately with the new job and all.. (yes, I’m employed now :p).
I’m doing alright and everything is just perfect right now.. I don’t do much design at the moment because I don’t have the time, and I miss it so damn much.. I guess I just need inspirations right now to get me in the mood to create something again :)
So many things happened in the last few months in …

o’la everyone… how was your long weekend?? gila cepat banget rasanya long weekend kemarin berlalu… Friday to Monday berakhir begitu saja.. hiks.. anyway.. HAPPY EASTER! :)
Long weekend kemarin lumayan seru juga.. hari jumatnya Boat Trip itu trus sabtu nya makan2 pasta.. trus minggu French Night, si Jessi masak main course, Desta bikin Creme Brule (Yum!!) trus malamnya bersama2 nonton DVD.. hihii.. trus hari senin kemarin HOTPOT!!! yeeehhhaaa! setelah di tunda selama 3 hari akhirnya makan juga..  Oh dan semua itu di lakukan di Mascot! tempatnya Desta.. yup… 4 days in …

Hari jumat kemarin pas Good Friday, semua nya gak kerja… dan rencana sebelumnya tuh ada makan2 steamboat (hot pot) di tempatnya Desta for lunch. Gua udah excited banget karena its been a while.
Skitar jam 1 an si Jo dah jemput ke rumah, betapa kagetnya ketika di dalam mobil ternyata udah ada si Desta.. (padahal sih biasa aja..) anyway.. udah jalan nih trus baru pada heboh nyuruh gua ambil Camera.. akhirnya balik lagi layaknya orang bodoh.. hihi
Pas di mobil semua rencana awal yang cumen mau Steam Boat an jadi berubah semua.. …